Thursday, January 31, 2013

Restrained.

So it's the end of January. Cool.

After spending half a month in CPU, I'm proud to say that I don't regret it at all.

Yes, part of it is because I'm given an opportunity to live a new life, part of it is because I'm not facing too much stress here, but the most significant reason?

I'm being taught to be a better person.

All of the new people I've met has indirectly taught me at least something. Just a mere ten days in CPU changed me more than a year in high school.

I'm quite different from most people in a way that, well, I tend to mature a little later than others. Not really a little, in fact I believed that I lived through my lower secondary school life the same as I lived through my primary school life. It's only till Form Four that I've changed.

However, I could only change so much before I'm being restrained from maturing further.

Most of my high school friends knew me by my happy-go-lucky, childish, introverted self. No matter how much did I try to change their mindset, it'll fail miserably. To them, I'm still the old me. Well, I can't actually blame them, I've imposed this restriction onto myself. Well, it's hard to act differently in front of high school friends, so I went along with the flow.

The flow turned out to be a huge roller coaster ride. And it's only now that I know why did I tend to suffer from emotional breakdowns in high school.

Half of it was because of her.

Half of it was because I wanted to start my life over again, but was denied the ability to do so.

I tend to worry about what people think of me, whether or not wishing a simple "hi" to someone would make them hate me, and basically everything.

This experience in CPU indirectly taught me that sometimes, a smile will lead to a long way, and making new friends isn't all that hard, one just has to take initiative to mix in.

Just ten days, and I'm already loving it; I'm finally able to change myself in a new environment, where the people know me not by my old self, but by the present me, the new me, the friendlier and more outgoing me.

What is going on? Why did I change so much?

Maybe it's because of peer pressure in high school? Maybe it's because of my fear of being alone? Yet, sometimes I think it's only due to the former.

You see, every time I try to change myself, people will think I'm being weird and stuffs. Ironically, when I remain my usual self, people tend to berate me for my personality.

This will to change eventually got a little too strong.

And when I'm all by myself, I decided that I'm gonna change for good, and CPU provided me the perfect chance to do so.

One day, our English lecturer asked us to search for a quote that we find meaningful.

I only had one in mind, a song in fact. Robot Boy by Linkin Park.

“You say you're not gonna fight, cause no one would fight for you.
You think there’s not enough love and no one to give it to.
You’re sure you've hurt for so long, you've got nothing left to lose.
You think compassion's a flaw, and you'll never let it show.
You’re sure you’re hurt in a way that no one will ever know.
Just hold on, the weight of the world will give you the strength to go.”

Saturday, January 19, 2013

Runaway.

It's been a while since college started (four days), and instead of going for A-levels like most of my friends do, me and my parents decided that I would be better off choosing CPU (Canadian Pre-University) instead. So yeah.

New year, new life, new environment; which means that I gotta get rid of my shyness and my introverted self, and live a better life.

Better, as in, changing myself to fit in with social norm. I regard the word "better" in a highly subjective manner. I don't really see changing myself as anything but to fit in the crowd more easily. Ditching my more childish personality for a more "mature" lifestyle certainly would scare away some (maybe the two or three) people that actually liked it, but still, I guess this is just social norm. It's hard just being myself without getting criticized at every possible moment. Some people might actually view my childish side as a "better" option, while most of them wouldn't.

What's with me thinking of philosophy and stuffs?

First day of college and I met up with Au Yong and Ivan, who are taking the same course as I am. We met another CHS guy and I met up with a new friend that Rach introduced me to- Caiying. We got along pretty well I guess, for someone that I haven't met in real life before. Hmm, not bad, this kinda gives me the confidence that I needed to be more outgoing.

Made a new friend- Lex during orientation. He's kinda cool and friendly, and I quickly got comfortable with him. Hmm, not bad, an improvement over last year, when befriending one stranger took ages, I've managed to bond with two people in just an hour or two. That's awesome.

College life has been pretty good so far. Yeah, I'm still kinda shy and quiet when meeting up with new people, but at least I'm much more confident that I was last year. I tried to smile more often, and tried to convince myself that not everyone is a monster.

And a thing about smiles that I've noticed, is that it allows us to trust the person more, to bond a stronger connection with the other party. A simple smile forges the path to a mutual connection between each other, and eventually, friendship.

Met some very interesting lecturers; one of them was my English4U (basically a Grade 12 English course) lecturer, who encourages us to express opinions. This, hopefully, will transform me from a timid person into a debater of some sort. That certainly sounds brilliant.

All the extremely memorable recess sessions that I had in high school are the past now. Instead, with only two other friends taking CPU along with me (and our break times don't clash), I have to try to be independent, to meet up with new people, to spend time bonding with new classmates, to surf the net on my iPad in some random area (forever alone). But it's cool, for now, hopefully I'll get used to it soon though.

College life is both good and bad in some ways. In college, taking out our phones (and iPads) in classes is unquestionably normal, we can wear whatever the hell we want (and soon I'm gonna run out of fresh clothes to wear), go wherever the hell we want (no more restrictions), eat basically anything (alright, I'll definitely go bankrupt), etc.

Of course, this means I can't spend much time with my high school friends anymore, can't simply go around and flirt girls anymore (fine, I admit), and well, all those crazy stuffs that I used to do in high school? Most of them are deemed "childish" or "immature" in college. Oh damn.

College marks the start is a new life, a new beginning, and a rebirth (all three of them are the same, actually).

Hey, at least by advancing into college, I could finally safely get rid of a memory that continuously haunted me throughout high school. That one person that slowly devoured all the happiness out of my lonely soul, leaving only sorrow behind. It's not that I hate her, it's just that, although I've been full of glee having her by my side, but deep down in my heart, I've been crying all along, and nobody in this world understands it, because I rarely show my dark side.

And by finally letting go of her, I hope that this long, brutal scar in my heart will heal, even though it'll never be perfect again.

I wanna run away from my haunted past, from the memories that never existed in her eyes, from the cruelty of society, and everything else in between. I wanna escape the paranoia that chased me till no end, the fake happy masks that I've been constantly wearing, and the people that abused me for their own good.

Run all the way until I hit a brick wall and start over again; or run until I see the light, and finally free myself from the chains that enslaved me. Whichever it is, I just want to finally move on.

I'm no longer the person that I used to be.

Monday, December 31, 2012

2012 - Growing up.

Part 1
Part 2

I kinda rushed through the previous part cause I'm getting emotional. 

Remembered what I said about the beach BBQ thingy in the last post?

Yeah, nothing bad actually happened there; in fact, it all went too well.

A little too well...

I clearly remember how the situation was last year; it was pure chaos. During our 2011 class trip, S3 was split into two groups, and the members rarely interact with each other. At the beach, after lighting up the fire, we all sat with one another, and the atmosphere was nothing but silence. Yeah, there were chatters and stuffs, but it was only between our group members, and no one else.

I can't believe how many friendship opportunities did I miss out that time.

Fast forward to the night of 28th December 2012. Yes, we lighted up another fire, this time for BBQ. I sensed no hatred towards each other; we freely chatted with one another, laughed with each other, and helped one another barbeque the meats. Unlike 2011, there was not a single time did I see anyone belonging to a certain "group", other than the huge group, which is S3.

This is what I call a family.

Although we were broken, scattered and lost in the past, we eventually learned how to embrace and accept each other for their personalities, talents and flaws.

2012 is certainly a very eventful year for me, not just because our class had finally became a family I can be proud of, but also due to many, many other happenings.

Compared to what I've said in the past, and the beginning of the year, I'm proud to say that I've met many, many new friends, and also reconcile friendship bonds with people who I seldom mix with in the past. Although still childish, I've learned how to be (slightly more) independent. Now, I don't really need to rely on my own friends to get to know other friends; I've learned how to communicate with strangers, which some of them would gradually become my best friends.

Too many things happened during the course of this year alone. Memories of the first day of Form Five are still echoing in my mind, as if it were yesterday.

Why didn't I bond with my class earlier? Why does it have to be the end of the year that I started to mix in with everyone? Why couldn't I be a friendlier person when I started high school? Why?

So many questions left unanswered, and they may never will be answered until the end of time.

Well, I guess this is all part of growing up.

The same goes to every single one of us in :@) gang. We started off being childish little bastards that just wanted to play and laugh at every moment, to brothers that genuinely cares for each other. Each of us had our own personal problems, whether it's related to trivial issues like love and relationships, to more mature issues like politics and the environment.

Looking back into my past blog posts, I realized that I've changed quite a lot, not all for the better though. Maybe I've gotten a little more emotional, maybe a little more mature? I'm not sure, and I don't wish to be sure about it.

This year will remain as a year of transition from my innocent teenage years to adulthood.

All the outings, the gatherings, trips, meetups and events that I've attended and organized, will forever be carved onto the walls of my mind. This year is the most meaningful year for me.

I've done most, if not all that I wanted to do this year, and I'm proud to say that some of them heavily exceeded my expectations, although some were letdowns. But nevertheless, I'm proud to say that each and every one of them left a mark in my life, whether or not positive or negative.

This is my last blog post of 2012, as it's 11.48pm now. I pray that the year ahead will be a blessed one, and another positively memorable one. I pray that I'll be more mature, and act less like a child sometimes, and be more independent, and meet new friends that will love me for who I am. I pray that I may be blessed with the strength to overcome any obstacles, and pray for guidance for my future decisions.

As the pendulum swings and the year's ending, I wish that all of you, regardless of who you are, a very prosperous and memorable new year, a year of positive memories and good luck, and a year of everlasting happiness.

I'm ready for it.

- End of 2012.

2012 - This is my family.

Part 1

This post will be about the S3 class trip (yeah, it's gonna be super long and super wordy).

Reached Kanna at 7.30am, and almost immediately fell asleep on the table (I didn't really sleep well the night before). A cup of hot coffee opened my eyes instantly, as I began crapping with random classmates.

First location: Broga Hill.

So we took the bus (the same one as last year, and the A4 trip lol.) to a temple. Great, so SPM sapped away my already low stamina; I got (kinda) exhausted after climbing up a handful of steps on the stairs. But whatever, so we reached some place where there's a statue of a monkey (Chee Seng) and a very cute animal that Au Yong loves the most. After draining half of our cameras' batteries in that area, we headed to some hill nearby, after crossing a hanging bridge. Oh, and Au Yong danced (again) Gangnam Style across the bridge, and people were screaming for help.

We walked up the hill and were bathing in our own sweat. So there's another monkey statue on the top of it. Cool. Then I realized that the temple wasn't actually Broga Hill (yes I'm slow), so I was like meh, how hard could it be to hike an approx. 50m hill?

The bus stopped at some wasteland far, far away from the entrance of the hill, and the signboard said "1.7km to Broga Hill". Oh wow, I'm so gonna die. Well, it wasn't too long till we reached some kind of rest area, where the aunty there sells drinks, and Red Bull. Yay. So I bought one and drank 80% of it, and had enough energy to climb up the rest of the hill (it was hell).

Climbed all the way until some part where my gastritis struck again. Shit. I kinda panicked. Maybe my breakfast wasn't enough? Whatever, I was still comfortable enough to actually stand (lol). Au Yong played Negaraku on his phone, and we all stood up and sang it. And some hikers also stopped in their tracks and stood still. After the song ended, we met some of those hikers descending down the hill and one of them praised us. Au Yong made S3 proud.

Managed to descend all the way back to the rest area before my gastritis totally reigned over my body. And this continued for the rest of the day. Damn.

After that, we went to some coffee shop to have lunch. Too bad I was still suffering from the nausea caused by gastritis, so I kinda missed out on the really mouth-watering curry. ): boo.

Went to some observational tower after that, and oh boy, the view was pretty splendid, but other than that, it was more like a time-waster.

Then we took a rather long bus ride to our wonderful, magnificent bungalow; and it comes with a swimming pool. That alone is enough to satisfy my needs.

Gastritis kinda ruined my night though. D:

Second day, my stomach's finally killed off the freaking gastritis. Yay. So we ate bread (totally not Gardenia). I then realized that some of the guys didn't sleep at all, which earned them my respect.

So we took the bus to some Maritime Museum, which basically consists of a huge wooden boat anchored onto a sea of pebbles, and a rather small building. Honestly, the place is really, really clean, and I'm kinda impressed about it.

After walking through the interior of the boat thingy (and relearning our History, again), we went to some nearby spot to take a group photo, and Mun Chun asked an American (?) guy to help us take the pic. So because of that, we made a new friend. Awesome. Then, we went to that building thingy, which was some sort of "meteorite museum" thingy. Meh, nothing special.

Then we went to some nearby "megamall" to have lunch. The food court ain't that bad, not as good as I expected, but whatever. After that, we went around the mall to shop for Christmas presents.

And here comes the trolling.

Au Yong decided to buy a new pair of shoes, and we went to the shoe store. He bought a RM99 pair of black shoes, which was (obviously) packed inside a shoe box. Then we started finding the others and walking to random places, before coming across an area where loads of souvenirs are sold. Me, Au Yong and Chuen Hong decided to troll some people, thus we started scavenging for extremely useful presents.

We came across a shop where we saw a very cute chicken.

A very, very cute chicken.

Chuen Hong bought it for RM15, and it was just too cute. I mean, the noise it made was just so beautiful.

I bought a very special box and some roaches. I was totally in a prankster mood that day.

And Au Yong? Oh well, he simply bought a pair of stupidly looking wooden sandals and replaced the RM99 pair of fascinating shoes in the box with a RM10 pair of unwearable souvenir.

Awesome.

After that, we went to some cafe thingy and celebrated Kit Yan's birthday there. Oh, and apparently Chee Seng kinda "confessed" to her, which was totally epic die. The cakes were scrumptious as well.

Skipping the beach BBQ for now,  I'll continue about it in the next part.

Third day, we woke up for another round of Massimo bread, this time (finally) with some meat on. Well, just some, but better than none.

A Famosa's Water World was well, not actually that good; but since I'm with friends, going anywhere is fun. I swam for a bit in the lazy river thingy, before becoming some sort of motor to pull the girls' floating tubes to the end. Damn, I was exhausted. Lol.

The rides (or should I say slides) were really, really fun, especially the High Speed one. Seriously, free fall is one of the best feelings one could ever experience, better than any roller coaster.

Hmm, I guess that ends all the random information about HK trip / class trip. Next post's gonna be emotional.

- End of Part 2

2012 - The definition of crazy.

Phew, I never thought that my post-SPM schedule would be full of outings, gatherings and whatnot. There's that prom night that was so awesomely memorable, three outings to Pavilion (like seriously, what the hell), an outing to Sunway (ice skating ftw), a badminton outing, and well most importantly, that stupidly crazily fun trip to Hong Kong and two gatherings with S3.

I don't feel like writing a ten thousand-worded post, so I'll (try to) summarize it.

The trip to HK was just, crazy. All of us stayed overnight in Au Yong's house the night before our flight (I only slept for two hours wtf), and his dad fetched us to KLIA at six in the morning (damn that's early). It was a really beautiful car ride, for sleeping that is.

The rather short four-hour ride in the (admittedly, pretty decent) plane was extremely beautiful as well.

And the bus ride  to some unknown place miles away from our five-star hotel was just, wonderful (yay for free wifi).

Unsurprisingly, we were lost in the middle of some desert filled with people who only know Cantonese. And it was raining. Brilliant.

So the hotel staff somehow fell in love with all of us innocent kids and upgraded our room to a suite. I was so excited.

Oh, so the bathroom doesn't have opaque walls? Instead there's just a huge glass wall separating the place where people shit and the actual bedroom? Oh wow so they installed (switch-controlled) curtains to cover the glass in case someone does not like being photographed shitting in some blue-watered toilet. This is totally an architectural masterpiece. And there's an embedded LCD TV in front of the bathtub, totally high-tech. And we were all so satisfied that the bathroom door couldn't be locked, so peeking is highly recommended.

Seriously, I can't believe that each of us paid approximately RM600 just to wash ourselves in some stupid transparent bathroom for couples. I mean come on, they expect us to pay for some shitass coffee packs, and potato chips. What is a five-star hotel with no free coffee? Damn it.

Hey, the internet speed there is super fast, so whatever.

Before boarding the MTR (which is basically Hong Kong's MRT), each of us bought an Octopus Card (similar to a Touch-n-Go), which cost HKD150 (approx. RM60). Instead of touching the card at the card reader, Jer Shyan forced the card into the ticket reader, and the card got stuck inside (and the machine was unusable because of it), so he went to buy another card. We totally laughed our asses out.

The Peak was colder than a block of ice. Being Au Yong, he brought along a Malaysia flag and waved it at the top of the (oddly shaped) building; Malaysia should be proud of him. We even took a photo with it, and the people there were totally staring at us like we're from Pluto or something.

Anddddd we ate McDonalds for dinner. Wtf. Go HK still wanna eat American food. So fail lah. Well, at least the fries were good.

We (Me, Au Yong, Jer Shyan) had loads of fun discoing in our (connecting) rooms, effectively disturbing the other three (Au Yong dancing on their beds really helped a lot). Mission accomplished.

Went to Lantau Island the next day, and we had to ride a cable car (Ngong Ping 360) to the core (??) of the island. Since the ride took like forever, Au Yong started to dance, and Ting Jie was screaming and scolding him to stop, but he didn't, obviously. And we eventually got bored again and started waving at random people in the returning cable car that was heading towards the opposite direction.

Skipping past the rather average lunch and the supremely long stairways up to the huge Buddha statue, on the huge circular platform that supported the statue, Jer Shyan placed a bet with Au Yong that he'll give him HKD 50 (RM20) if he took off his shirt in public, and he did exactly so. I still can't really believe that he actually did that.

So after heading back to Hong Kong Island, we took the MTR and went to totally random places (since our schedule for the day basically ended already), and I just tagged along.

Ocean Park on the third day, and being me, I was anticipating it very much. Yeah, it ain't as picturesque as Disneyland, but it was still amazing. Went to the Aquarium first (I personally think that Malaysia's very own Aquaria is better), then we went so some kind of panda world, and brought some souvenirs there. Oh, and we saw two (very, very lonely) pandas there, and one of my friends said they bought them from China. Cool.

The real fun only started when we reached the Summit (which is actually the "extreme" part of Ocean Park) and instantly got on two different rides. The Flash was well, some huge spinning thingy that well, spins, and loops around. Hair Raiser (such a meaningful name) was a lot better, but the ride felt a little too "safe" to be scary.

Then we had some airline-quality lunch that cost more than a five-star meal; it isn't that bad, it's just well, a little too average.

Me and Jer Shyan rode The Eagle, the kind of ride that sends you all the way to some five hundred miles up in the air before dropping you to the ground. A mere two seconds of adrenaline rush will never be enough for me.

After descending from the Summit, we arrived at some place called "Old Hong Kong".

And the next day, with the others heading back to Malaysia, I resumed my HK trip with my family. Ivan told me that they boarded the 4.05pm flight at 4.02pm, and I didn't know whether to laugh or to pity them.

- End of Part 1

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

The Last Christmas


It was right after a massive snowstorm, the lonely buildings and blistered roads were smothered by snow white crystals. There were no skyscrapers in sight, which was never a wonder, as it was the city of greed’s abandoned outskirts. The handful of people who worked there were those that chose not to beg for empty cash on the cold, frozen streets. Why did they call it a “street” when a single vehicle was not to be seen? Nobody knew, maybe the people of the city had a little too much fortune to spend?

She was not the only one sitting by the frosty sidewalk; there were at least ten other people begging on the same deserted street, hoping for a mere penny that would allow them to buy what? Absolutely nothing, as the nearest bakery or food store was located deep within the city, and they cost at least a mountain of trivial pennies, or maybe two mountains. But unlike her peers, which were mostly in their mid-fifties or sixties, she was barely five. She didn’t wear the “luxurious” sweaters and jackets that the others wore, but instead she had an excuse of a torn black cloth draped over her heavily stitched short-sleeved shirt. It wouldn’t be a weird sight if she shivered, but she didn’t. Her cold receptors were functioning perfectly; but she just didn’t sense the wrath of the freezing atmosphere, whereas her peers were all shivering so hard that one may actually feel the earth moving. Her long blonde hair was allowed to waterfall down her forehead to shield her from the deleterious white bullets flying directly onto her heavily scarred, but still recognizable face. She was dirtied and blemished, but her heart was not and never will be.

Beside her was a body, a corpse in fact, a decomposing one, one that emits such a pungent smell that it actually chased away the flies. It was the former shell of her beloved mother, who succumbed to an extremely contagious fatal disease. Even though the treatment was dead cheap, they couldn’t seek medical help, as they were the slaves of cheap meaningless cash; slaves of the rich and slaves of the noblemen. They could do nothing, not even selling off their “home”, as it was a frivolous wooden shelter, crafted by the vehement hands of her diligent father, and was worth barely two pennies.

Where was her father at that time of distress? Oh well, he went far, far away to seek medical help, claiming to know a doctor “of the highest sagacity”, one who would work for free; but it was fourteen days since he took off, and there were no signs of him, not even a letter. However, his only daughter hadn’t lose her miniscule amount of hope yet; she still believed that one day, her father would be back, healthily and gleefully, along with the best physician in the world. But it was too late.

It was a very dark night; darker than all nights; darker than darkness itself. She was looking after her infected mother in their shelter, when the people who didn’t bother to donate or sponsor the stupidly cheap treatment became devils. They took initiative and turned the pitiful family’s shelter into a blazing sun that scintillated the night. The two managed to escape the scorching heat, but everything else didn’t. They lost all of their hard-earned food supply, their protection against the deadly frost, and everything else; nothing could be salvaged. Well, maybe two small pieces of charcoal, but nothing else.

They ended up being stranded in the middle of the most penniless street, living a life worse than poverty.

She scouted the area for a piece of broken cardboard, which didn’t take too long to find, as the area was infested with garbage. She intended to write out a message, as she couldn’t actually speak. Her child’s mind caused her to attempt using the soft, fluffy snow to trace out the words, but it failed without doubt, as the white pillows would fall off when the board was held vertically. Her heart was crying frozen tears, as she wanted to give up; she needed someone to guide her.

She stared at her mother, and it was a doleful sight. She tried to shake her in hoping that she would wake up, but she couldn’t, as her soul was already in heaven. Sadly, the really innocent young girl hadn’t grasped the definition of “death” yet; she casually assumed that her mother was in a very, very deep sleep. She clearly saw crimson red blood flowing out of her mother’s completely withered mouth, but how would a juvenile girl know about the true meaning of the “red, slimy water thingy”? She sincerely thought that her mother has left some “red ink” for her to write, thus she dipped her extremely malnourished finger into the red pool, and wrote a very short sentence on the sorrowful rectangular cardboard.

“Daddy, where are you?”

Minutes flew by, and it soon became hours, but very few people passed by. Even so, all of them apparently ignored, or simply didn’t want to even glance at her mother’s corpse. It was etched onto the people’s minds that those with the sickness are merely “fools that only bring harm”, and thus, the death of the infected was actually a very positive matter that was worth celebrating. There was a bastard with a mind of a tyrant whom appeared in the most obnoxious fashion, as he kicked the poor girl’s face, slamming her onto the brick wall behind her. She felt an undeniably agonizing pain, but she couldn’t scream. The bastard walked off without looking back, but the girl was so used to it that she merely crawled back to her mother’s side and sat down, holding her hands.

However, in the midst of a horde of cruel monsters, there was an affable soul that stopped by after reading the handwritten message on the cardboard. He was a rather tall man, wearing a white robe and had brown slippers glued onto his soles. He stared at the girl, who was very injured, but she wasn’t even shedding a single diamond tear. She was different than most people, different than those who thought of suicide after his or her pet dog died. He knelt down and grabbed the girl’s flaccid arm, but he didn’t pull it with force. The girl seemingly comprehended his purpose, even though she really didn’t, and followed the mysterious man to a mysterious place.

It was a mysterious river.

Well, not actually that mysterious, but it certainly did sparked flames of curiosity inside the girl’s immature mind. How could a place contain so much water? Yes, it was in fact ice, but in the eyes of a lovely child, it was pure, drinkable water. It didn’t took more than five seconds before she spotted her formerly muscular father, then reduced to a mishmash of skin, meat and bones, “sleeping” beside the icy river. A smile was naturally carved onto her adorable face.

With help from the man who had a heart of gold, they lifted her father’s “sleeping” body back to the streets, where her mother was enjoying her longest sleep ever. She then placed her father’s body right beside that of her mother, and it was a very picturesque sight, albeit horrifying one, since they were both just empty shells. She knew that her job wasn’t done yet.

Somehow managing to understand her intention, the man casually smiled and brought her into the most soulless city in the world; a city where the people were born out of cash and will die buried in cash. In the middle of the broken city, there was a gigantesque structure, a Christmas tree in fact, that perforated the brilliant night sky. There was a man dressed as Santa Claus sitting in front of it, giving out presents to the myriad of hopeful children, lining up in what would be an endless queue. She has never seen such magnificent lightings before, not only those attached to the tree, but those that were flooding the city. Although yellow and orange were the dominant colours, hints of blue, red, green, white, purple were to be admired, giving birth to a city of iridescence.

At that very moment, all eyes were fixated at her, as if she were an alien from the planet Mars, or some unnamed dimension. One could easily figure out that the people were entirely disgusted by her mere presence, as their faces expressed dissatisfaction in the most conspicuous way. Many scowled at the sight of her, and some even unleashed a flurry of pejorative and extremely vulgar words at her. The girl, however, was oblivious about their feelings, and actually presumed that she was receiving a warm welcome by the gregarious people there.

The chubby man in red saw into her miserable spirit, and pointed at her, asking her to come forward and meet him, skipping the rest of the snake-like queue. Without hesitation, the crowd all booed, seemingly in sync; some even tried to stop her by grabbing hold of her arms or hair, but she was already sprinting to his direction, and halted right in front of him. “Santa Claus”, who was formerly a man of laughter, instead smiled as if he understood the girl.

“I don’t need to ask you whether or not you’ve been good throughout the year, because you are. Young lady, what do you want for Christmas?”

She didn’t actually listen to his words, since she was so distracted by his gorgeous crimson costume, and the marvellous decorations stapled throughout every corner and crevice of the city, and of course, the humongous Christmas tree. She looked at the bearded man directly into the eye with utmost confidence, as she calmly let out an alluring smile.

Santa turned around and reached for a moderately-sized present box, before offering it to the girl, simply stating that the box “is all that she needs”. It was a rather heavy striped box for someone of her size, but she managed to carry it, albeit consuming a little too much of her already poor stamina.

“Young lady, I wish you all the best. No need to thank me, this is the best that I can do.” He waved his right hand, before immediately retracting the same hand in order to rub his eye, as if he was trying to wipe away his tears.

It wasn’t long before she returned to the streets, and her parents’ were still the most professional sleepers to ever exist. The fetid fragrance of decomposition was too strong for the other beggars to handle, as they hastily left the area not long ago. She tranquilly opened the box’s lid, and hibernating inside the box was a thick wool dark brown blanket with some stripes of lighter brown.

She positioned herself in between her parents’ bodies, before allowing herself to lie down. She then covered their three bodies with the rather wide blanket, effectively repelling the dreadful cold that was haunting them all this while. She gazed onto the blinking stars, as their appealing shine was reflected onto her pupils. She gradually shut her eyelids, as a single drop of illuminating tear flowed down her face, turning into a droplet of luminous ice that shattered upon impact with the ground.

The man in white robe stood in front of her, with a very wide smile painted onto his chiselled face.

And she smiled for the final time, as her family has finally found peace. Her heart muttered one last sentence.

“Good night, daddy and mommy. I love you.”

Sunday, December 23, 2012

Chivalrous Personification

Rampaging into the feasts of heinous dignity,
savaging the glorious beasts of vicious velocity.
Emaciating the heartless fool, standing in vicinity;
decimating the restless ghoul, floating to infinity.
Stained and dirtied, dusted, crumpled without pity;
rained a storm of rust, struggled to find clarity;
chained onto a violent gust, reaching the core's rarity.

Time passed with a heartless me standing still,
waiting for thrill;
but had to desert my frill,
in exchange for a dessert to fill,
burned to crisp on a grill.

An individual,
smothered in scars of happenings so morose;
so unequal,
bothered by a drake disguised as a rose.
Feelings so mutual,
rid it by lovesick drug overdose.
Conclusions so eventual,
fed to the guilty man's sickly pose.