Wednesday, May 15, 2019

The Ascent

Welcome to our company
I am a well-dressed interviewer
who has spoken to a thousand candidates
some wanted to change the world
but they didn't know how or why
some wanted to be my slaves
just to earn two percent more than the average
some told me that they can do anything
even eating their own shit, apparently
yet only one has truly moved me to tears
and that person, was myself
for I made myself cry out of deepest respect
for I have not seen any candidate more worthy than myself
who was, and still am, the epitome of perfection
why do I say so, you may ask
it is really, really simple
I want to change the world
Now, please introduce yourself

I am a beauty
who has graduated from a gorgeous university
more prestigious than your company
I have obtained first-class in everything
all because I am a true genius
who can do everything and anything
except eating my own shit, because I am civilized
I have raised many beautiful children of my own
a bunch of lovely underwater people
and I kiss their fish-heads on a day-to-day basis
in accordance to my strict daily routine
of not having to sleep because I'm inhuman
and I do not need to rest my eyes
my heart or my soul
I am, by all means, the ideal employee
it will be your loss not to hire me
it is, and will forever be your biggest regret

I lie on my king-sized bed
alone, yet never lonely
reflecting on the interview a year ago
a bittersweet, yet understandable dark nostalgia
a learning experience for that point of my life
a promise too strong, too unrealistic
a dream that faded away as quick as it came
as the harshness of reality pummeled too hard
obliterating the leftover sanity of my mind
as I trespass the swamp of despair
the muddy substance reaching my thighs
slowly waddling through the putrid pool
filled with infectious leeches and disease-ridden bugs
biting and chewing on every exposed area of my skin
crawling into my tight clothes, as if I were naked
completely exposed to the elements of nature
threatening to consume me and all I stand for
as a headless roach lands on my head
and like the dusty rain pouring on me
the roach flows down my hair
stopping at my eye
yet I am neither disgusted nor petrified
for it is but another challenge for me to overcome
as I make my way across the ocean of soot
I feel something wrapping onto my feet
an octopus' tentacles, or just some seaweed
the thing glides across the hairs of my feet
wrapping around it a few times, before letting go
in a rather haphazard manner
as the water level rises to my abdomen
up to my chest
and now my feet is no longer touching the sandy ground
but I relent
as my head is submerged in the brownish-black fluid
maybe it is brownish-yellow
but who can tell under this perfect midnight
as dark as my dreams back then
to change the world, in what way, I wonder
as cold as my heart back then
to consume everyone who stood in my path
the moon is missing, or maybe it is hiding
trying to avoid watching me drown
fearing that my sunken body will haunt its dreams
and terrorize the visions of all under its light
but I understand, really
for I cannot expect others to save me
as I start to inhale
very willingly, very intensely
yet I am not choking on the muddy water
for I am breathing the freshest air
blessed by a thousand guardian angels
all fighting for my survival
granting me a planet's worth of oxygen
but I am the only one who can swim upwards

I am now sitting at my desk
staring at a page of numbers and letters
processing, analyzing
there must me a certain trend to today's results
a recognizable pattern
a hint that foreshadows my tomorrow
yet, while I am in my concentration zone
a person approaches me with a smile
"good job in whatever you are doing
let us work harder together
to get you out of that swamp
and back onto your king-sized bed"

Who am I
but a mere human being
learning from mistakes, meeting new people
yet, there are times when I do get exhausted
I need a short break
for the depths of the swamp is my safe haven
the water level continues to rise
but it is fine
as the days pass by, I get better at swimming
soon I will be strong enough to leave this pool
and once again step on dry land
dirty, wet, but feeling satisfied
that I have braced through hell and back

Until then
I will never give up
for my dream is to change the world
and I will do it
by inspiring others to be better than they are
to use my story as a means to motivate others

There will be times when I'll fall
there will be times when I'll scream and cry
for I am not perfect, and neither are we
but forgive me for my mistakes, for we all are learners
climbing our mountains, rising to the top
accomplishing our life goals, though they may differ
we all intend to be the best that we could ever be
whether to change the world, to change ourselves
or just to make someone smile for a day
or perhaps a lifetime
we simply want to make our presence known
and to leave a footprint of love behind
never fading despite the wind and storm
never disappearing from the heart of earth
as we will all be gone, turned into dust
let our bodies give rise to new shoots
which will each grow into world trees
forever shielding the people underneath
from the cold, cruel rain

This is not a competition
this is simply us, trying to be ourselves
this is me trying to be myself
trying to seek out the true meaning of my life
what do I aspire
but to reach for the bright blue skies
now a golden sunset
and shine a light of inspiration
throughout the pitch black night

But that will not be the end
for my dream is neverending
to travel to the centre of the universe
instigate a new big bang
a supernova of time and space
restart this timeline, rewrite history
but why do I want to do this
how do I want to do this

I guess I'll find out along the way
as I resume my grand ascent
to the heavens at the centre of the universe