with all the lives I've lived for
and lived through
and lived with
all are now the truest life
when those songs are truthfully
ringing into my dreamlike ears
serenading who I was
and who I am
or what I am
will look back at the temporal pause
the mesmerized nature of my heart
to live in such a
very very empty room
bare and naked, yet
that was all I ever wanted
as the songs lifted me up
into the realest sense of
falsehood and self-mockery
but all those fantastical smiles
and all those practical miles
that I've marched through
not unlike the freest human
not unlike the sweetest soldier
it was like
I was in a trance for the entire time
could not escape
but that was furthest from my mind
never once in my thoughts
I would live in a dreamlike reality
a real-life dream
a lovely little monster in me
has died and rose again
yet containing maybe none
of its former darkness
maybe it's just me
maybe it's the temporal nature of
how the world revolves
how I revolve around people
and how people revolve around me
and how people
with all their ignorance and apathy
are indeed
the most beautiful things
I might revisit this place
but until then
let us resume this episode
of a newly-formed subconscious
