free me from this never-ending spiral
as I scream with a spirit of defeat
as I slowly walk away
onto an island
all my pains
free me from these chains of darkness
like knives drenched in some cold-hearted fear
lost in space
the wounds on my beloved body
shattering the glass wall that separates me from
these emotions
filled with all the bonds that I've broken
as the blood of sorrow tearfully leaks out
of this obstructed tunnel
my future dusty shelf
nurturing me into a human of humans
like the musical notes of peace radiating from the
prison cell of reprise
on a branch made of sand
"where am I in this world of pain?"
and this light will finally reach the end
clobbered into a ball of loneliness and foreshadowing
the sea-blue skies of invisible clouds
"where are the clouds?"
never to be seen again
"where are the clouds?"
far far away
like the birds of heaven gliding through
whatever beings that are walking in the outside world
and as I kneel and beg for forgiveness
you stop to hold my hand
the scars of love root me into the soil
and talk to me
and there is nothing I can do
but release all this tension
of my demonic eyes
and talk to me
and shine a light onto my gut-wrenched heart
but what will this world say to me
and talk to me
when they witness the mind of a fragile self
slowly choking on the scent of wisdom
weak, miserable
as if chasing a shadow filled with hope
slithering on the gravelly floor
as if I were a wild ape of regret
crawling up my scrawny limbs
like a clawless sloth sleeping all day
wiggling into the orifices of my ear
deeper and deeper into this dreadful womb
yet I will never belong in that fearful place
as the stuttered words leave its mangled lips
a peephole to a mind
of a former drunk state of mine
lifting itself up onto the thick air
all we can do is to
flow away into the deep blue sea of love
like an earthly tree of mother nature
all we can do is to
accept this state of mind
and move along
all we can do is to
speak to the world in kind
and stay strong
