2012 - Growing up.

Part 1
Part 2

I kinda rushed through the previous part cause I'm getting emotional. 

Remembered what I said about the beach BBQ thingy in the last post?

Yeah, nothing bad actually happened there; in fact, it all went too well.

A little too well...

I clearly remember how the situation was last year; it was pure chaos. During our 2011 class trip, S3 was split into two groups, and the members rarely interact with each other. At the beach, after lighting up the fire, we all sat with one another, and the atmosphere was nothing but silence. Yeah, there were chatters and stuffs, but it was only between our group members, and no one else.

I can't believe how many friendship opportunities did I miss out that time.

Fast forward to the night of 28th December 2012. Yes, we lighted up another fire, this time for BBQ. I sensed no hatred towards each other; we freely chatted with one another, laughed with each other, and helped one another barbeque the meats. Unlike 2011, there was not a single time did I see anyone belonging to a certain "group", other than the huge group, which is S3.

This is what I call a family.

Although we were broken, scattered and lost in the past, we eventually learned how to embrace and accept each other for their personalities, talents and flaws.

2012 is certainly a very eventful year for me, not just because our class had finally became a family I can be proud of, but also due to many, many other happenings.

Compared to what I've said in the past, and the beginning of the year, I'm proud to say that I've met many, many new friends, and also reconcile friendship bonds with people who I seldom mix with in the past. Although still childish, I've learned how to be (slightly more) independent. Now, I don't really need to rely on my own friends to get to know other friends; I've learned how to communicate with strangers, which some of them would gradually become my best friends.

Too many things happened during the course of this year alone. Memories of the first day of Form Five are still echoing in my mind, as if it were yesterday.

Why didn't I bond with my class earlier? Why does it have to be the end of the year that I started to mix in with everyone? Why couldn't I be a friendlier person when I started high school? Why?

So many questions left unanswered, and they may never will be answered until the end of time.

Well, I guess this is all part of growing up.

The same goes to every single one of us in :@) gang. We started off being childish little bastards that just wanted to play and laugh at every moment, to brothers that genuinely cares for each other. Each of us had our own personal problems, whether it's related to trivial issues like love and relationships, to more mature issues like politics and the environment.

Looking back into my past blog posts, I realized that I've changed quite a lot, not all for the better though. Maybe I've gotten a little more emotional, maybe a little more mature? I'm not sure, and I don't wish to be sure about it.

This year will remain as a year of transition from my innocent teenage years to adulthood.

All the outings, the gatherings, trips, meetups and events that I've attended and organized, will forever be carved onto the walls of my mind. This year is the most meaningful year for me.

I've done most, if not all that I wanted to do this year, and I'm proud to say that some of them heavily exceeded my expectations, although some were letdowns. But nevertheless, I'm proud to say that each and every one of them left a mark in my life, whether or not positive or negative.

This is my last blog post of 2012, as it's 11.48pm now. I pray that the year ahead will be a blessed one, and another positively memorable one. I pray that I'll be more mature, and act less like a child sometimes, and be more independent, and meet new friends that will love me for who I am. I pray that I may be blessed with the strength to overcome any obstacles, and pray for guidance for my future decisions.

As the pendulum swings and the year's ending, I wish that all of you, regardless of who you are, a very prosperous and memorable new year, a year of positive memories and good luck, and a year of everlasting happiness.

I'm ready for it.

- End of 2012.