Trance II

Sometimes I live through such wrong ways

And such foreign ways

That I will live my life in their ways

Emptiness in time

It is a life that I will agree upon

And now my time is up

I appreciate all appreciation 

Of a worldly forgiveness

A world that I feel so dead in

I sacrificed so much for me

That I can never be satisfied

I am willing to be on a long way

That I am like a dragon on holiday

I feel as if I am no longer myself

That I will never change for themselves

A world inside my heart

A world inside my mind

A poem and a story of my life

Are written in lies. 

I am willing to be gone

For I among all people

Propelled myself forward with such intricate words

A complex mindset

I am not amused

For I am confused about life and fame

For life is worthless

Why do we live

Who do we live for

For a dance that will make us faint

And we will soon be dead.

Sure, I said so

For worldly hope has nothing to do with fame

The fame and fortune are fighting

For my pleasure

And tears are broken and frozen

They are fortunes of me

This trance will never end

So this prose will never end. 

This is my world and my fortune

For this will be the last of fame

Laughter and smiles are falsified

And I think I am destined

For such unfortunate ways

And a poem I will write

For all ladies and gentlemen. 

I'm comparing the ratio

Of 'am I here' to 'I am here'

So am I happy

For 'am I here'
Or am I happy

For 'I am here'

I am asking myself

Am I here
Because I want to be here?

In the midst of confusion
I paved way for delusion.

I wretched everyone and I wretched myself.