Trance

Burrow into a hole of once upon a time
let me be darkness and light
the light falls
the light falls so quickly that I felt no pain
as the rain washed it all away
for someday
like a lullaby
to obtain worldly freedom
for I wasn't given a chance
for they would be such lonely rationalities
and it was for such inspiring melodies
and hate and betrayal.

My life is all a lie.

My soul could not withstand such irritating attempts
to dissolve conflicts
for worldly issues are over with slaving attempts
to digest criticisms.
I will not and will never be given
a chance to live anymore
a change for me to change
for I am such a hollow spirit,
deep beneath.

Intricate decisions
instigate wars and hatred and betrayals
for time in itself is unworthy
of such a depressing time
it is a time of depression
for all of us
for we could never betray us
for we could never betray them
...
it is I who want to revoke
the feeling of remorse
...
...
for they all will understand
that this world is nothing
but a mere misunderstanding
...
but then I don't get it
why me
why of all people, me
...
because I disregard human attempts
and lead to disgrace
and I wield disgusting power
and I surrender to society's chances
and I will soon vanquish
for no one can control me
for no one can lead me
into a disordering fantasy.