All I want to do is trade this life for something new.

Examinations are freaking exhausting. Like, seriously. I barely sleep for 4 hours these nights. Amazing.

And they said that a lack of sleep could kill. Damn.

There are stuffs which bug me. For example, the Civic project which I have no intention on becoming the group leader. I retired my post, but am still afraid that nobody else would be responsible and all the blame struck into my heart (again). Well, it ain't my fault as some of my group members (whom I honestly do not know) deliberately appointed me as leader just so that they could slack their lazy asses off.

I've been taking the leadership role for like, ten projects, not including trivial events such as outings and gatherings, for three years. Which meant that I kinda lead almost every single project that I had to complete since form two. I know that number ain't a lot, but for someone who isn't used to the petrifying amount of stress which accompanied the role of a leader, I need a rest.

So don't push me around like I'm some wasted piece of shit.

I'm exasperated by the fact that I was blamed for not being responsible, when I didn't took up the offer in the first place. Damn. Why does it always have to be me?


Well, I'm fragile, unable to defend when I'm cornered by humanoid leeches. If I were to stand up and lambaste those bastards (I repeat, I don't know who are the people whom did that) to oblivion, or do anything other than sitting there and getting dragged around, I wouldn't end up like this.

Hell, if I did that, I wouldn't be anyone's punching bag.

But if I did that, then I would probably lose out in making new friends.

Yes, I comprehend the fact that I couldn't defend myself, but please, never use that to your advantage, or you'll rot in hell for your sins.

Whoever you are.

And to those unknown people whom appointed me as leader, be glad that I didn't have mood swings that day, or you'll experience excruciating agony.

I repeat, I do not know who the hell are you people who pushed me around like that, appointing me as leader without my permission; not that I want to know anyway.

"I know what it takes to move on. I know how it feels to lie. All I want to do is trade this life for something new, holding on to what I haven't got." - Waiting For the End, Linkin Park